I'm sure I'm not the only one who at one point thought the grass is greener on the other side. Social media totally messed with my head. I would open my facebook and see beautiful photos of vacations, perfect dinners and perfect lives. I was starting to believe my life really sucked. As I was scrambling to pay bills , make grilled cheese for supper and look half way decent for work my friends were living the perfect life. After careful review and soul searching I now know MY GRASS IS GREEN.
I came to realize everyone has burdens and I'm not the only one who struggles. I have days when I have wish my life was different. I wish I had nicer clothes ( thanks pinterest) a better job ( which by the way didn't turn out as expected) and a nicer house but...that's life
I no longer go on FB. I choose to talk, text or visit with my friends. For me it makes the relationship more solid. I need to hear a voice and a laugh. LOL doesn't cut it anymore. It's been a year since I last checked my FB and I don't miss it at all.
I have great friends and family...check
soul searching was rewarding...check
no one will ever be perfect...check
I watered my grass and it grew...check
Love, CiCi
Monday, May 12, 2014
Thursday, May 1, 2014
But what if...
I haven't slept lately. I've had too much on my mind. I'm trying to make a life decision that will alter my lifestyle. By no one's fault but my own I've been programmed to do the same routine over and over again that it has become second nature. Days, months and years went by and I never changed. During the years I became anxious, angry at my situation but most of all angry with myself. Many times I've thought about changing my lifestyle but fear stood in the way. Fear is so powerful and has such a hold on me but I'm going to break the cycle.
I'm tired of always second guessing myself and my abilities. I owe it to myself to break up with fear. I will no longer be trapped in a situation and accept it. The words " but what if " are over. Done. The time has come. I feel it in my heart. I'm quitting my job. I'm moving forward with another job so let the cards fall as they may " se vuole dio".
I'm starting over...check
no one can control me except myself...check
my goals are in place...check
I'm going to get a good nights rest...check
Love, CiCi
I'm tired of always second guessing myself and my abilities. I owe it to myself to break up with fear. I will no longer be trapped in a situation and accept it. The words " but what if " are over. Done. The time has come. I feel it in my heart. I'm quitting my job. I'm moving forward with another job so let the cards fall as they may " se vuole dio".
I'm starting over...check
no one can control me except myself...check
my goals are in place...check
I'm going to get a good nights rest...check
Love, CiCi
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