A new season

A new season
October
changes
attitude
rain
hoodies
dry skin
sleepy
time change
wardrobe change
chilly
dark skies
attitude again
comfort food
hibernate
weight gain
sweatpants
arthritis
falling leaves
pretty colors
pumpkins
football. Go Buckeyes. Go Browns
a better attitude


I will try and keep a good attitude...check
I will try and accept the change...check
I'm strong and I can do this...check
I live in O-H-I-O...check

Love, CiCi

what's so funny?

I need to laugh more. Being to serious about work and home is exhausting me.

I need to stop following stupid rules. Who said dinner time is at five o'clock?

I need to stop thinking I can do it all.

I need to call my friends and family more often. I miss them.

I need to stop thinking my pajamas should be on by 8 p.m. I'm ridiculous.

I need to realize that it's okay to go shopping after work and stay as long as I want.

I need to forgive myself when I eat 2 donuts. It won't go to my hips right?

I need to realize relaxing for 20 minutes isn't a waste of time.

I need to plan fun activities on the weekends. The yard work can wait.

I  just need to laugh so hard my belly hurts.

LOL...check

hahahahaha...check

ROTFLMAO...check

It's 9:21 p.m. and I'm still up...check

Love, CiCi

I've come a long way baby

As I review my past posts I am amazed at how far I've come. The one thing I've noticed about myself is the self doubting I tend to have has gradually diminished. It took  getting another job for me to kick the habit. It all started 3 months ago. I applied for a full time position because my previous job was going no where fast. I knew it was a dead end years ago. Fear, rejection, lack of confidence and lack of certain skills kept me from pursuing another job. With the help of family and friends cheering me on I applied for a new position and I won. That night I quit my job that I had for 20 yrs. Best feeling ever. My  boss hired me because she saw something in me that I never did. Being a 52 yr old woman walking into a full time job wasn't easy. I'm learning so much about the industry but learning more about myself. I just wish I would have learned sooner.

I promised myself that I will not allow self doubt to exist in my life. When I'm asked to do a task at work I don't have the fear I once did. I listen and follow instructions and I pray. If I fail I forgive myself. I keep trying until it becomes second nature. I've had days where I've been discouraged but I've adjusted my thought process in a positive way.

I feel emotionally relieved knowing me and self doubt are no longer friends. Confidence is my new best friend.

I am happy that I love my job...check
I am happy that I have an opportunity to learn something new...check
I am happy that I appreciate, respect and like my boss...check
I am happy to be an activity assistant at a nursing and rehab center...check

Love, CiCi